Blue day

[mamagotcha]

I know it's still a time of transition and settling, and it's the middle of winter, and I'm kinda isolated with the boys, and I'm not very high energy right now...

but I feel like I've been going to homeschooling, SCA, knitting and other gatherings, and really trying to meet people, and the few I've felt drawn to I'm trying very hard not to alienate by being too desperate for adult companionship... and I haven't really felt that any of them are really drawn to me, just kinda like they're being nice to me 'cause I'm new here (for which I'm immensely grateful, don't get me wrong!)...

I don't think any of the people I've met in Chicago even read my LJ.

Just feeling a little down, lonely, sad.

Comments

[mh75.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[essaying.livejournal.com]

It's really hard making close friends in a new place, especially when you work at home. I've found some people I like here, mostly my writing group and one or two others, but kightp -- who lives an hour away -- is the only one who feels like a friend-friend rather than a friendly acquaintance. So far, anyway.

[jedusor.livejournal.com]

It takes a while to build a support network. But it's worth taking the time to build a good one, rather than trying to speed-connect. You found good people in KC, of all places--I'm positive you'll find some where you are now, with time. But yeah, meanwhile, it sucks. Sorry. :/

[elainetyger.livejournal.com]

Karnak predicts... one year from now you will have no time for yourself because you will be too busy doing things for all your new friends.

I thought of calling you yesterday and probably should have, now that I read this.

[vito-excalibur.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. But like everyone says, you know moving is tough like that! It is seriously one of the reasons I have stayed in the bay area. That first year here was *so hard* and for a number of years afterwards I overscheduled the hell out of myself because I had spent so long staring at the same four walls with nowhere to go and no one to do it with that I could not bear turning down any invitations.

You will meet people! You are very sweet and like to do fun things and are nice to hang out with and have interesting thoughts and opinions to tlak about. It just takes a while. And honestly I think you are brave to have gone through all the moving you have & keep your chin up!

[jillcook.livejournal.com]

I hate that transition time. It is part of what is keeping me here, I think...I have found some people here, and am (sort of?) comfortable here...I had a day last week when I positively pined for your companionship though! Sigh. It is hard. (hug)

[genderfur.livejournal.com]

Wow. I feel like that, and I've lived here for 15+ years.

I have a hard time making friends. When I first moved here I knew a lot of people from college, and they've been moving away ever since.

I keep telling myself that THIS WEEK I'll finally get to that knitting group that meets every Wednesday less than a mile from my house, but when I get home from work it's hard to leave again. (That, plus Bean has no interest in going there and it's hard to leave and know she's alone at home.)

So.... THIS WEEK I'm going to get my ass to that group. I popped up in their Rav group to ask about it, so now someone actually expects me. Maybe that'll do it.

[mamagotcha.livejournal.com]

GO YOU! And come back here and tell us what it's like, okay?