Godspeed, Dad

[mamagotcha]

My father passed away on Dec. 22, 2015.

Here's his online memorial site.

It's been a pretty rough month. I really should write about it but I'm not ready to. Still, I wanted to let people know this site was up.

Thank you all for your kind support and encouragement these last few weeks. It has helped so much to know I'm not alone.

Comments

[feckalyn.livejournal.com]

Thinking of you Katje.

I just read a great book about family that really supports the idea of allowing oneself to grieve. Have You Ever Had a Family by Bill Clegg. Do you have a e-reader, I'd love to send you a copy!

[mamagotcha.livejournal.com]

Thank you, dear S. I'm not familiar with that one... I have access to an iPad, would that work? Or on my laptop?

I feel like I've done enough grief support of others to know how to be patient with myself as I go through this... but even with all that knowledge and experience, I'm starting to get annoyed with myself for not pulling up my bootstraps and getting on with things. I know that getting sick when I got home, being stuck indoors during this crap weather, and family craziness all have contributed to things being just shit in all directions (imagine a RainBird but spewing shit instead of water)... gaaah.

Also many hugs to you as you negotiate your own loss and grief...

[feckalyn.livejournal.com]

Pleasing visual my friend! I may use that one.

I know what you mean about feeling like you SHOULD be further along or whatever. I think that's practically universal. I say fuck the SHOULDS. Wallowing in true emotion sets a great example for your family. Think of the women who pound their breasts and wail and then wear black and sit for a year or more before they do anything. Americans are awful at grieving and it shows in our rates of substance abuse and mental illness.

[mamagotcha.livejournal.com]

Fuck the SHOULDs, indeed.

I am making some pork fried rice and then watching Transparent and knitting and not being productive in the slightest. Well, I do have to wash some laundry because I'm down to the Granny Panties...

xoxo!